harsh

what's your feeling when your group member use your example to complete his assignment while directly related to your assignment?i will feel nothing unless someone says he wrote it better than me then i will care. i thought assignment is a group effort that writing the same story. however, due to the consideration of group work, it divided to partial to each member 1 part or more but still writing the same story.

i was blamed. my group member blame me for writing the same story for example in the assignment. i don't like to be blame. fine!this is the first time i collaborate in assignment with them. is my fault for not meeting their requirement. i apologized. but what i want to clarify is the method wasn't wrong!

i miss kuala selangor!i miss penang!sobs..

grief

i dont know what's wrong with me recently.
it feels like my luck just went off.
i am always experiencing you lose some when u get some.
i haven't back to my hometown for a month.
this is the first time i feel isolated from my family.
this is what i was dreaming for.
but, it doesn't feel good indeed.

a strange scene happen to me and Kian.
she called me a stranger.
i still remember she said she will ask me out if she come to KL.
so when she wrote her blog and said she came to KL,
i asked her why din't find me.
then she replied me who are you, stranger.
ouch, that's pain enough.
then i fight back and i can only say i hate you
because i really don't know how to fight back anymore.
actually it is good that everyone treat me as stranger.
i can understand why she treat me as stranger.
then she asked me to get out of her life.
i....am fine with that too.
i never be part of anyone's life i've thought so.
i doubt.
i doubt that what kind of me should i be.
a bad guy?
a good guy?

i've strived, thats what makes me left behind.
i've tried, thats what makes me stay alive.

i came back from kuala selangor at 12am just now.
then i opened my laptop as usual and sneaked around at facebook.
then i saw desfin wrote that she was boring.
intentionally and unthoughtfully, i chatted with her.
first i thought why suddenly she was so nice to me.
then i asked her to give me her msn add (she deleted me)
and she gave me.
accidentally or godwish, she chatted with lawjoey(her best fren)
she din't recognize who i am, she thought i was someone else she known oso as Randy
i was fine with that.
then lawjoey recognized me
then she shouted OMG,OMG and OMG
she remembered who i am d.
then she blocked me instant
she hates me?
why?
she betrayed me and she hates me?
does she eligible to hate me?
too bad













i know you was scare of me
but hope you know that i am always hoping for the best for you

dearth

i spent my whole day watching korean movie which was my favourite.
i like the feeling of the sadness it gave.
it makes me feel that i am still care of myself unlike when i went to KL few months ago.

my family came to KL for my cousin's wedding.
this cousin is my god sister as well.
but i departure from Penang with Liza first because she had an interview.
in the party i got to see the faces i dont like.
the uncle, aunty, and cousins.
especially my god parent.
i wonder why my parent allow them to take me as their god child.
in a circumstance, i told them that i want to go to Kuala Selangor to have my hair cut and eat the local delicious food.
immediately my god mother came to me and advise me in public:
you come to KL to study or be a food tester?
then i said i have to eat while i study right.
then she asked me why i want to do so.
i said i dont want to waste my chance to try the delicious as long as i still alive.
then she said to me in front of all people:
"you are wrong........"
1st thing i was angry is she nag me in front of so many people, they were listening.
2nd thing is she denies my opinion without any consideration.
3rd thing is she tried to manipulate my mind.
4th thing is the thing i always angry with her about. she never did her job as my god mother.
i hate to see her.
i hate to talk to her either.
but my mum keeps remind me that she is my god mother.
that irritate me more.
sometimes i would rather be an orphan like Liza than face all the fakers.

today, my dad asked me to go to MidValley to have lunch with my family.
today is my parent's 22nd annivesary.
then while eating, my mum kept complaining my hairstyle.
then she even compare me with my cousins.
that even piss me off. then i bursted.
i shouted you can complain me anything but not my hair!
dont manipulate me!
then after lunch i went back hostel immediately.













after years, i still miss you.
i will always love you and hope the best thing will happen to you all the time.

motivation

637am in the morning when i am writing this article.
i am not that hardworking by waking up so early.
but is my time turned upside down since the exam period start.
i sleep when the sun rose, wake up when the sunset.
three sarcastic papers was over.
i had never felt like suicide when i exam.
but this time i really dont have any confident on passing the paper.
one more to go.economics for marketing.
economy is my talent i would say.but the matter is the calculations.
although i manage to get a B grade for the coursework, i still a little bit worry on how to pass this paper.
this 2 days, desfin posted some of her recent pics on facebook.
and i accidentally and i felt like it was fated to make me saw the pics.
she was my motivation on everything i do when i with her,
after broke up, the sadness and loneliness that she gave to me
had evolved to an intrinsic locus of control to me.
but time goes by, i lost interest on everything when i thought i managed to get over her that time.
i felt that love is so easy to get and easy to let go.
thats why i became dispassionate.
but this few months i changed again.
i become an extroverted people again, i used my intuition a lot again.
why is it so?
because i miss her so much. i seriously say i still have feeling on her.
she is like a mark, a tattoo to me. ineraseable.
her shadows, her smiles, her voice, and everything, suddenly haunted me back.
that makes me still believe there is true love.
i wont hope to be with her again, but i will demand for her happiness.
she will never be my partner anymore, but no one can stop me from faithful to her.
although she betrayed me, i still love her.
if possible, i will keep my love to her forever in my heart undiscover because she is the only factor of my motivation.
then i checked on her profile, stated,"in relationship with Justin Looi"
thats the guy who i wont ever waste my time write any of him in my blog.
and i can know something of her recent life in penang because
i was with her for 9 months, everything of her are seems to be
predictable to me.








what goes around comes way back around
i miss desfin.

enervate

suddenly the mood of writing comes up after attended ms chin class.
she talked about mr teoh again and i read e - paper jz now.
his case still unsettle and some papers are insulting his girlfriend immoral because of pregnant before marriage.
then the papers stereotype that chinese are like that, immoral.
i support ms chin that our current WISE prime minister should do something to these people who picking someone's bones.
then i came across the PKFZ issue.
poor mr tk ong.
he said he was threaten for revealling the truth of PKFZ.
then this guy,mr teoh couldnt hold his nerve by telling to public that is mr ong owed him.
well, this is fraud definitely.
ACA dont tell me there is nothing wrong with the PKFZ issue, but mr teoh was guilty.
so, today i read through an article from somewhere.
he said the ACA should have retired or shut down instead.
i was like....good, is useless anyway and yet you may be killed before the case close.=)
then about the H1N1.
now only i aware that our country medicine facility soooooooo...i can only use trashy to describe it.
and yet our mr liaw warn us, whoever SUSPECTED to have H1N1 should wear mask or will be ARRESTED.
OMG!sick also have to arrest?
you guys really got nothing to do is it?
why dont you use the remain resources to invent antibiotic for it?
you are ministry of health right?i almost thought you are the head of police when u said arrest.lol
by the way, from the death rate of H1N1 in Malaysia, i can only determine my lovely country as an ethnocentrism country.
why the news of the 1st H1N1 country, Mexico has gone?
because is under control?
if is under control, their country is bigger than malaysia and can be controlled, why dont us?
thailand is under H1N1 attack too. but their people can still strike on the road without mask.
dont tell me thailand medic is better than Malaysia?
and yet the members of parliament (MP) still proposing to help Gaza.
dudes, you are under fire, aren't you aware that?
if you are so concern of the people of Gaza, why you never propose to help people in Taiwan?
just because they are American's friend so they are not human?
then what make you different from a japanese (from my knowledge, japanese dont lk taiwanese for certain reason)?
then this article makes me ithcy.
mr hisham said,"We’ll act against those who incite hatred on the Net! Those who use the cyberspace to incite hatred or insult any race or religion or the monarchy, will soon find it increasingly difficult to hide behind the ‘mouse’."
as what ms chin suggested to us just now.
as in constitution, i now using the Act 10 which is the right to speak to express how i feel in the way which is proper.
blog can be public, can be private.
nowadays, a lot of people write blogs to express their emotions to share with the readers.
the writer have the right to write whatever they want.
but it is depends on how the reader determine the phrases.
folks said,"pointing a deer and say is a horse."
the meaning is in this dark city although there are lights, but we have to say it is dark because the powerful man insist it is dark, whoever say is light will be killed.
thats 1 of the definition from my point of view.
of course i know the real meaning, but i could barely think of a story to explain it. so be it.
my college is going to close. thanks to the once thought is head of police, mr liaw.
H1N1 is already scary. now after you get infected even suspect only if you dont wear mask, you will be arrested also.
our government is sooo CUTE!
like the editor of sinchew,mr cheng said they got nothing to do but picking others bones.













i am trying to practice on writing a 300 words article

afflatus

i was having a really wavy day today.
in the morning, i was praised by Ms Chin for giving her some creative ideas on the case study.
i was hailed for the praise.
then with a pleasant feeling, i ended my classes.
when i backed hostel, i saw that fellow again.
he was socialling with my housemates (to gain relationship so that can stay more days without commitment)
then i went to bath as usual.
then he took a nap.
i purposely put rock songs with my splendorous woofer!
woooo!!!!i was so excited!
then suddenly....
daymare came to me.
my mum called.
she told me my sis jz had a terrible result.
then she put all the blame on my dad 1st for not paying the tuition fees for his daughter.
then she bring out the old time stories to tell me how bad was my dad.
then of cos i will say enough i don1 hear those anymore.
then she started to blame me for stand on my dad side.
then said i am unfilial.
then said i should responsible for my sis poor result for persuading her not to tuition.
tuition is a long story so i wont tell here.
after i listen to her, i got angry.
becos from wat i analyzed, she was trying to dominate all things.
my dad did so much for her, she still unsatisfied.
i nvr listen any good words about my dad from her.
then i scold at her for not respecting her husband.
i asked her to talk nicely at least negotiate with my dad and have discussion.
then she cant listen anymore so she just shut off the call.
after that, i went movie with some frens which i promised earlier.
then i told 1 of my fren who had a divorced family too.
then she inspired me something which make me relief.






one of my fren in penang jz lost his mum for a brain stroke.
remourn...

Aggravation

frustration continues as one of the stupid dumbass is my roommate.
he is a complete clean freak.
i sweeped the floor then mop it as well.
he still not satisfied because he think still dirty.
so he sweeped again.
then i fed up. then asked him to sweep himself don ask me to do it anymore.
then after the friday presentation, i mute myself to him.
then i went back to hostel and just pack my things then fly to 1 utama to hang around.
then he messaged me,"bad news for you, i was suspected to be in h1n1,dont come back this few days."
what the f***
die mah die la!so what!then after i back from Kuala Selangor,
there is a stranger in my room.
i asked him who is the stranger.
he said is his Johor friend, came since friday.
dude!did u inform one of the owner of the room that there will be a stranger in my room?
then i never talk to this guy at all because he looks so fuck up!
then i asked the dumbass when will the fellow leave.
he said tonite maybe(monday nite).
tonite is wednesday nite!
the fellow is still in my room playing facebook and watching movie like nobody business.
i want to get some sleep. then his msn alert keep waking me up and the lights never off even 4am in the morning already.
in summarize, this fellow is so fuck up!parent never teach him have to greet all the members in the house if you want to stay in someone's house?
while i am writing these, the fellow is still watching movie in the living room(because i close the light and pretend that i sleep) with max volume of my housemate's laptop!
i swear if tomorrow he is still in my hostel, i will fuck the stupid dumbass for his lack of responsibility and his disrespectful to me!
i dont care you sick or what!the fellow you bring in you must bear for it!
then you sick u shut all the windows and doors until the room hot till can steam a chicken in 5 minits!
then you want me to suffer with you also ar?
when i sick that time i never do like that to you also la!
you know what is give and take?
sorry, i just forgot!you are just a stupid dumbass that dont know how to use your brain!
lazy!stupid!dumb!stingy!racist!SEAFOOD(means lala)!thats what i can decribe him!













AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

blithe but dont indecent

woeful days recently.
last week after i came back from penang for celebrated my sis grand birthday party,
i had a terrible week.
i got a presentation on thursday and i did it just fine.
on the half way of my presentation,
i suddenly felt bored with my own topic.
it's about persuading people not to marry.
although i am agree in this view point,
i dont think i was persuasive enough.
then the next day, friday, 2 presentation consecutively.
i was so eager to finish it off with a great presentation.
so talk about the 1st presentation.
it's a group presentation about football.
football is my expertise.
unfortunately, there is a stupid dumbass in my group
who is poor in english, not aggresive in study and what i can describe is stupid and lazy.
is a lassie.
so?who say girls born to dont know about football?
the lecture just simply ask her,"if u are to replace the manager to manage the football team, what will you do to build your reputation?"
simple question right?
of course we did discuss and we told her the answer.
but who knows she dont know how to build a sentence in SIMPLE ENGLISH.
then second question to her too (lecturer purposely do it becos she 1 the dumbass to learn)
"442 is a common formation of the football team, what can you do to the formation to enhance performance?"
guess what the dumbass said," What is 442?i really dont know about football (in front of the class) and in the presentation still!"
i was trying to help her out by telling her answer in simple english.
but she couldnt catch up my words and asked me to speak word by word LOUDLY.
GOSH, are you insane?you are suppose to answer the question, not me!
then lecturer just let us go and i got shame because of the dumbass!(from Johor Branch indeed)
so thats the end of my 1st daymare of the day.
then second presentation, MIS.
same group with the dumbass again, but added 2 more dumbass also from Johor Branch, same condition as the previous dumbass.
this time, these 3 dumbass go out and told things that they dont even understand.
lecturer asked her a basic question of the software she presented only.
she din even understand what was the lecturer asking.
then i had to stand out and help her out again.
then the other 2 also the same.
then i asked them what was that!
they told me they nervous and mind was blank.
then i said thats your problem, my marks are low because of your nervous is it fair to me?
my performance was great among the whole class!suppose to get 4 out of 5!
but because of their unprofessional behaviour,
i just got 2 marks!2 MARKS!!!
unacceptable!lecturer said that the assignment was not truly understand by the group!
so she gave us such a low mark!
what the f***!then she said i am the only 1 who sounds like doing the assignment on my own then distribute to them to present!
i explained that no!each person write a software then each person will present the part that what they had wrote.
impossible u cant tell people the story that u wrote yourself right?
but these 3 dumbass really make my ass bleed!
in conclusion, from now onwards, got johor branch people no me!
i cant imagine they are so poor in personal enhancement!
somemore lazy!shit!
my johor frens are very smart!unlike these dumbass!

mourn

2 days ago, i just celebrated my 21st birthday with my classmates.
they made me felt warm indeed because i never celebrated my birthday with a birthday cake before.
days before that, Mr Teoh was reported committed suicide.
when i read the articles, i admit that i cried.
i believe many readers cried as well.
his dead made me think that if i was the one who was dead.
i still have a lot of dreams never accomplish yet.
my friend man chun told me that his purpose of living is to die.
he said he lost the compassion to live.
i felt the same as he does.
but when i read the articles, i had change my mind.
the world is still warm and is getting warmer until the go green people keep telling people global warming.
but my warm means the world still love me.
people live to get a better life.
politicians fight among each other to be on the post.
i just learnt a word called servant leadership.
it means the leader works for the subordinates.(Lim Guan Eng)
the traditional way is subordinates work for the leader.(Mr. Mahathir)
they all have the same goal, better life.
but patheticly, people like to use tricks to succeed.
so Mr. Teoh was sacrificed.
but he managed to be a hero in public's heart.
his dead integrated the community more eager to strike for justice.
is very extraordinary to see the chinese stand together fight for the same purpose nowadays.

autism

last weekend i went back to penang to attend my convocation.
then my parent finally attended although they almost late to see me get on the stage to receive the diploma.
no special feeling from me when i received it.
i can see from my dad's eyes telling me that nothing to proud of, this is just a diploma.
yes, i am feeling the same too.
there are more challenges ahead.
after that, my parent gave me a bunch of sunflower.
then my mom insisted that i will like the flower.
in fact i am not.
it proved that my mom don't really know me.
but my dad do because he said why give a guy flowers, disgusting.
then we took photos and i managed to take with my favourite lecturer, Miss jocelynn lee.













smoking is not good for health, but it helps to stay focus.

frustration

Saturday is my belated convocation.
I am sure everyone hope that parent will attend your own convo right?
So i called my mum (i never spoke to her for a long time) to ask her whether she wants to attend my convo or not.
then she asked me to ask my dad whether he wants to go or not.
so i called my dad.
my dad quickly rejected his friends' appointment.
he said luckily i called him to remind him.
actually it cheered me because all these years i am urging him to treat me like i am important.
then i called my mum back.
then she rejected me indirectly. It was harsed seriously.
she told me the reason that she has to fetch my little sister to tuition at the time.
then i asked her to give me some money for the petrol(i purposely test on her)
then she kept saying that i hurt her...bla bla bla...
then she raised up her voice then said i am infilial piety (her friends are beside her)
i heard their voices. i really feel like killing them you know.
but i have to calm down.
this is my mum. so i just ignored every spears she threw at me.
but i just cant forget she just did that.
that really hurt me.
my mum never called me since i came to setapak.
she always told me that my dad was hoping that i can quickly study at setapak so that can abandon me.
but from my perception, is she doing it.
when my relationship was good with my mum, i was hating my dad for what he did to my family.
but now my relationship is good with my dad and i am hating my mum for what she did to dad.
my dad applied hygience theory to me and made me hate him.
but now he is applying motivator theory to me.
today my group did the eng presentation.
i did not put in my 100% because i still lost myself.
so at the 1st, i was trying to talk to my mum.
but she just gave me that kind of reply.
sometimes i wonder where is my family?
am i alone?
until just now 745pm my dad called me asked me when i back.
then i said tomorrow. he said i kept wasting his money travelling back.
haha.
actually i felt warm.













u make me wonder

mould

i stayed at hostel watch movie whole day, so what?
gosh!Ms Chin tutorial question really tough lk in the hell.
no wonder so many ppl failed her paper.
jz now i had dinner with Milk and her housemates with the Johor friends as well.
i ate a set of fried rice and a set of chicken rice plus a huge cup of herb tea.
i guess i had stopped drinking black coffee since i came to KL.
i barely chat with Vern today. but somehow i can feel that she is a little bit down today.
after the dinner, i fetched the johor friends back to their hostels.
while on the way, i let 1 of them to tell fortune from my hand.
he said he know how to do it.
alrite, i was planning to let him know who i am really are.
then he immediately told me that i am someone who put a high expectancy to myself.
i am a loner. i can do everything alone. then he said i am currently disappointing to my life.
just because i used to get 100% but now i am in 99% so i am disappointed to myself.
then i do a lot of plans for my life.
i admit he got the point.
so now my question to myself is am i pushing myself to get everything too much?













i deserve to be better.

castaway

today, i had a replacement class with Ms Chin.
early in the morning,she told us that she was being complained by AEM student about her teaching style.
Ms Chin had been remarkable since i went into KL TAR.
i admire her.the way she teach, she is cute sometimes, and her english is tremendously good.
the 1st day of her class, she kept on telling the students to be more prepare to work life.
i was sitting at the end of the hall observing the other ppl's reaction.
watching all those childish and shallow ppl that jz ignore her, i really feel sorry to them.
nvr symphatize but emphatize.
i dont lk to say ppl brainless but i lk to perceive in the other way.
they are not brainless but they jz simply retard.
after that i can feel the disappointment of Ms Chin.
so i decided to go and talk to her.
i told her that,"no worry!i will support u!u have been great!"
wow!that was brave.then ends up, she taught me thoroughly about the completion of the assignment.
actually i believe ppl jz need more courage to do something they simply believe.
that wasn't ego, arrogant or what. but i think we have to do right thing instead of do thing right.
rules is for indiscipline. regulation is for retards.
if u r self-disciplined and know how to use the brain, why need rules and regulations?
who need theory teaching instead of practical teaching?4 flat students!
so what?go to ur mummy!
then i saw Milk and her housemates outside of Ms Chin's room.
how am i suppose to have a conversation with a betrayal?i mean Milk.
she can simply expose all ur secrets for her sake and put us in unsettled situation.
yet, she will still explain to u that she did it for ur good!
omg. i don see any good on that unsettled situation.
i have exposed to much of my defenders to her.
i started to hate swimming because of her.
but i cant do lk that.
today Ms Chin taught us that we cant get affected by external factors if we 1 to success!
alright. tell u 1 thing! Ms Chin started to be my inspiration.
and i promised vern jz now that i will write about her.
i chat with her while watching drama,while reading newspaper.multitaskers!haha
i told her she is special to me. why?
because she...simple.

underdemiciated

if i knew that Ms Cheng would said about that i won't go and asked her.
it was ashamed i felt that.
she was persuading the ppl in my class that weak in english.
then the way she was suggesting is the way i am using.
english is not my 1st language, but i can tell u that i never get lower than grade A for my english paper.
i had improved my english since i went into college.
since then i never heard anyone comment about my english is poor but very good.
i guess it happened when my groupmates passed up a poor role play agenda (i never took a look yet).
maybe Ms Cheng thought it was my works.
no worry!
i guess i still have second chance.
i will present myself 100% in the role play next thursday.
since 3.5 is the highest marks Ms cheng ever gave, i will get more than 3.5!and i will be the only 1 in the class.
why i am so upset?
because Ms cheng compared me with a group of chinese educated ppl that very weak in english and yet they still don't want to improve it.
even they want they still cant because they are too stubborn!













Please remember that i am different with norms.

obssesions

Wow!what a day!
i woke up at 12pm then straight went for wash up.
after that went to chao xing's condo to fetch him then we headed to bintang road.
i found that recently i went to atm machines for quiet often.
i just took out rm100 ytd n i finished it today!aiks
this is just sounds not like me.
never mind!but i am really eager to tell this.
finally i found something which is delicious in KL!
and this stall somehow more delicious than penang's!
i feel a little bit hungry when talk about this.
i thought KL's wan tan mee sure can compete with penang's.
who knows the mee, the soup, the vege are in same level with penang.
then the wan tan i seriously tell you penang lost till...whoa!
then we went for a movie at times square.
before the movie we still got a lot of time to walk around.
so while we walk around, we talked about the girl he likes.
then i suggested him some ways.wakaka!
hope that it works.
about the movie, that was extremely...fantastic!
horror,horror and horror!

a big turn

yes. that's right.
today was a great day.
every thing just fine without talking to the slut.
just imagine i have to face the slut for 2 years.
but what bright my day was the MIS assignment i get the group approval to do it on my own.
but i promised i will do an excellent report for them.
you know how i convinced those bloody brainless woods?
my dad gave me a call.
he said 1 of his friend who is owning an international business that may suit our assignment requirement.
they still doubting.
then i asked them back,"do you have better idea?"
they just kept quiet.
as i expected.
then they still 1 to make my days difficult by asking bloody questions.
then i told them,"to approach this company's director, you have to accompany him to clubs and drinks and dance bla bla bla..."
they were shocked.haha
then i said no worry. i can handle it easily because this is my dad's friend.
meanwhile, i called this director, mr wong.
omg!i was hashed!his english was perfectly......good! then don't know somehow i became nervous!
well!this is the 1st time i spoke to my dad's friend whose english is so professional.
i became to admire this guy seriously.
then he asked me to write a formal letter of application because he somehow need to apply for other department as well.
he was being so helpful seriously.
then i just finished sending it. hope he don't mind my poor standard of english.

i was stung

So, today our group had meeting about the most complicated assignment in this semester.
but we finished it in half an hour.
why?because the other group members never prepare at all.
b4 the meeting, i asked them to think of at least 1 company for each person that suit our requirement.
but no 1 did.
fine.because i prepared and well-confident of my back up.
but, who knows they suggested some other companies that they barely know about them.
guys!we are doing management information system!
you guys suggest a small research company for what?
do you think there is an executive director in a research company (not AC Nielson that kind)
that use the system to do the strategic decision?
no right?
i really found myself getting older when i am in this group!
no preparation!lacking in intellectual depth or thoroughness!
all right then!
so i HAVE TO propose mine.
this company i had worked for them for half year and their background and what we need is 100% just fit.
and this company created their own MIS system that fit their company as well.
so our answer for the assignment is in the company.
i can get approval for the interview right now.
but the matter is this company that i worked is at penang.
so the other group member showed me that kind of doubtful face.
so i have to asked them for better idea.
then some 1 said GIANT supermarket.
i dont know the company well but i think they dont really want to bother us.
who want to do something that have 0% benefit to the company especially to a stranger?
this is not a deed from the company view of point but is a waste of resources.
i am not insist of taking Poh Kong as our 1st choice.
but i just want the group stop doing things that not necessary.
i found out that my group likes to do things that not really essential and no benefit at all.

















YOU make my life full of anger!

afflicted

this is the 1st time ever the group that i am in without teamwork.
there is a girl in my group that looks cute but awful(my opinion).
she tends to wear sexy and be a lot more feminine, such as speak in a very innocent tone,
eat in a very gentle way(slow in my opinion), wear a cap in an air-cond room,
flirt around, tends to be late in every meeting and class(purposely),
irresponsible......
i can have a lot of comments on this slut if 1 day she really make me reach my limit.
i had controlled my temper a lot until she can tell me that "u looks like very vulnerable!"
OMG, i guess this is my achievement on changing myself into some1 calm rather than a strong personality i gave to the previous friends.
ok,fine!
lets talk about what she did!
last week, my lecturer gave us a short group role play.
the 1st thing i did is i read through the characteristic of every role.
then i decide which role i wanted to play and a full script.
after that, the group decided to have a discussion about the plays in 1 of the group member's house.
then, i expect this role play meeting would be finished in 1 hour and we can do other tutorial questions together as well.
but god knows, this so called innocent gal late for meeting for half an hour!
when she arrived, she did it like very innocent and beg for apologize.
fine!we all forgive her!but she kept on repeating that she get used to be late!
even for a 2 hour class lecture, she can late for 1 hour and said "so what?!"
uuurrrghhhh!
then i proposed to the group members that how this role play should be done.
then this slut suddenly came out and disagree my idea.
then other group members asked her whether she got better idea or not.
then she said "i dono!i havent read through the question!but i don think we should do until that assertive!"
gosh!she wasn't in the conversation obviously some more interruption and create the blurs!
i have to work with a group of people that weak in English which probably failed in spm and nvr improved.
i have to raise down my presentation standard to make them looks ok fine!
the problem is the role play should be done in English!
i have to write a full script words by words for them then they just read it out!
this already piss me off!
some more!this slut said my script is a little bit boring!
come on!what do you want?why don you write ur own?!
u guys can even understand my kindergarten english some more u 1 something exciting?
then i write it more exciting for them!
then after that they prefer the boring 1 cos they can afford to do my standard!
fine fine fine!
we spent 3 hours meeting with no results becos of the chaos from the slut!
the other day, we chose to be the 2nd group to present.
then we watched the 1st group presented.
the lecturer gave some comments on the script which is all groups are similar!
the lecturer said should add this add that then cut this cut that!
i don think thats a great deal!so what?cos my script is perfectly in what she wanted!
but this slut that don understand the script at all(i already explained to her in variety of languages)
she blurred!she called off and wanted us to be the last group to present so that I can change the script!
i said my script is perfectly fine and u just do it!stop influence ur group mates to lose confidence!
but she was becoming more blur and i started to piss off feel like want to give her a slap!
luckily the group members listen to me and went to the front and present it!
but!the script was fine!my part was professionally fine!
they screwed!they did it like primary school kid reading books!no emotion!
no passion!so assertiveness!
OMG!this is the lousiest group and presentation i ever make!
and the most uncooperative group i ever lead!
my bad!my bad!and my bad!
if any1 1 to know who this slut is please ask me!i will tell u depends on my mood!
after this there is still a lot more of ridiculous things she did!
is too much until i cant even mention it all right now!i never hate a person so much like now!

woeful

my presentation was sucks.
2 out of 10 marks i gave to myself.
there are consequences in changing yourself.
bear with it.
get used to it.
i gotta move on.
new me then new way.
figuring how to fully utilize my new abilities.













u drag me to a place where you belong and take your heart along as u left.

THE CLASH OF THE CENTURY

Is 27th May 2009 today.
tonight is the most important day in all Manchester United Fans' heart.
so do i.
even my idol Lim Guan Eng is their fans too!wakakaka
alright!245am in 28th May 2009!the show will begin!
Lets talk bout hows my life in KL.
I had met some coursemate n it made me felt lk 1 to punch into their asses!
so if u 1 to hv some examples of rude n selfish n inconsiderable ppl,
this is wat i describe them as all of them gave me the same impression!
no worry!
Man Utd is coming to KL on July!
sure i will be going!my bro said he bought a ticket for me too!
somemore the place is right behind the goalkeeper!
gosh!u kno i hate van der saar rite?
i dono,mayb i will throw something at him cos he is 1 of the most overrated goalkeeper i hv ever seen.

sympathetic

Something special happen today.
I had my dinner with 1 of my housemate at Desa Setapak
under the LRT station of Wangsa Maju.
Then, I saw an old man in about 60 years old
carrying a bunch of newspaper wondering around asking for buyers.
He passed by me but i nvr notice.
Then, I saw the papers he was carrying.(the Rocket News)
Gosh, my dad n me were searching for so long for the seller of the papers.
I stepped ahead to him and i bought 2 with the old man, an english version and a chinese version.
No worry, i aint being pityful or wat.
Is just I want to pay my support to PR( Pakatan Rakyat) on wat happen in 7/5/2009.
My housemate was stung my action. He said, " Cant believe that u r such a person that so helpful to folks. "
He is studying the same course as I am but different year.
So, i asked him does he interested in politics.
Then he said he support BN especially MCA and believe MCA done a lot of deeds for the Chinese community.
Then I asked him did he kno wat happen recently in politics.
He said he knew and he believe the BN will remorse.
I cant believe he just said that.
OMG.
That was just lk a padre.
Then on the way to my car, i bought another guangming night paper.
It written on the 1st page, "1 disc 2 stories."
Then I read it all when I bak to hostel.
BN is using their old strategies, "cover the own black side, promote the opponent black side."
I decide to watch it myself the true stories of 507.
I saw the Mr.Sivakumar got carried out by some strong guys which I dono who r they.
And some of the DUN persuading the tempered ppl to stop doing all the sins.
But they nvr listen and rough up at the corner.
I nearly cry as I saw a scene that ppl who r meant to represent the ppl fighting lk a small boy.
I tot this will only be happen in primary school.
Thats ashame.
Then, the next clip is the police hunting all the ppl who wearing black shirt.
They jz HUNT them down. No trials. No explanation.
This scene can only be seen when we watch american shows (Heroes).
This had explained wat foreign writters wrote bout politics,
"Politics are a group of orstrich gather together to control a group of sheeps."
So, do u think there r still democracy surrounding u as u r shouting long live Obama that makes democracy alive?
Wat I can feel is ppl will still thinking in mind, "wat can we do?they r jz too strong!i jz 1 to live peace!dont bother my life!"
How pathetic was that?!

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