dear diary, here i am again. my friend Ryan just broke up with his girlfriend yesterday. he told me after the futsal session with him just now. my day gone mild after i heard his story. i started to think about desfin. but this is kind of confusing because my heart has already belong to someone else. maybe i am moody because i have compassion as to Ryan.

my brother called me yesterday. he told me that mum is going to change the telco from Maxis to Digi. then he asked me to send apologize message to mum because MUM DONT WANT TO LISTEN MY VOICE. alright! dear brother, what should i send then? "mum i'm sorry to make you hate my voice?" "mum i'm sorry i said something that broke your heart?"(she said more things that hurt me deeper) "mum i'm sorry for telling you i'm not going to marry for the rest of my life?"

advise me, diary.

damon salvatore?luffy?

hello diary, here i am again after i neglect you for some time. Johnson's issue today had stimulize me to write here. i don't know what should i tell him. i'm a loner?i like to do everything in my own way?i hate the way people around me behave?so i kept quiet when he was nagging me for not willing to help him in our group tutorial answers. i shouldn't argue with him because i have to control my nerve. but one thing i can't get over is why people around me just don't appreciate what i had done for them when they desperately need my help. should i let him to compile me to become whoever he want me to be? i had tried so hard to become the original me again. should i give up myself to accept the environment?

25th july

ishk!i am going to be very poor for the next few days until my roommate wayne come back from penang. yesterday i paid for his rental, after that i followed my housemates to @Maison. i am totally overspending. the cash flow is deficit. so today i ate only 1 meal. i am starving middle of the night. so i decided to hibernate. while i was going to sleep, i saw juin posted something that makes my heart rain as her heart does.
then i was trying to console her. but i know she wouldn't listen. i know the mood better than anyone else. what does a sad people need the most at the moment is a big hug from someone and tells you don't worry, i got your back. unfortunately, i wasn't around her, so is better for me to hibernate because i am starving and no money to eat.

24th of july

what i did for last few days? let me think...erm...breath? PPS? i forgot. i just remember what i did for today. i woke up 3pm then washed up. then i suddenly realise today is saturday: my movie day. then i checked on the time. then drove to wangsa walk mall. i was alone for your information.
i was wanting to watch the sorcerer's apprentice only. but i was late thanks to the stupid old folks that blocked the whole road because she wanted to cross the road. then i have to change the time table by watching 2 movies. so i watched Street Dance on 5pm then the sorcerer's apprentice on 7pm. Street Dance is a pretty nice dance movie. the soundtracks are sexy and cool. maybe juin should go and listen, see got what songs is suitable for her SEXY dance.
something confusing me in the sorcerer's apprentice. i thought Balthazar Blake is a villain in sorcerer's world? Merlin was a Royal family if i wasn't wrong about England history? i thought the Becky was Kristen Stewart in blonde.no, that's Teresa Palmer. why there was no one notice that they practice magics in the public?shouldn't there will be some chaotic in NYC? but i love the soundtracks in both movies.wee...

happy 22nd?

yal right!happy 22nd birthday to myself.
i woke up 9.19am and took a hot bath then put on my formal attire. yes, i got presentation today. then i attended the lecture at 10am 1st. after the lecture, i was starving like chickens and dogs. then i asked my classmate, GTY, "where are we going to eat?" then his response stung me for a few second, "sorry, we din't plan any celebration for your birthday."
gosh!i was asking where are we going to eat not celebration!fine!because i know everyone of you think that i am a bad apple in the class. i smoke, i drink, i don't join world cup gambling and i am an alien in the class. so what?shall i care?sorry, seems out of my topic.
then i went to my car with another classmate then we went to genting klang to eat chicken rice. then my class football members also joined me there.
after the lunch, then my presentation will be next. to be honest, until i stood in front of the class and start to present,i never saw what i was going to present. although the answers were completed by me, i also don't know which part of the assignment should i present. what i did was looked at the slide and start to talk in my own words. then when i cant think of anything to say then i just jumped slide.
after presentation then i went back to hostel. i chit chat with some of my friends then i took a nap. after that i took my dinner at PV7 as usual, mix rice. then as usual, after my dinner i had my pool session for 5 games. then i came back to my hostel to watch korean drama. while i was watching drama, my little sister called me and wished me, then i was lazy to talk to her because she is 11 and still don't know the manner of talking to the phone. then i lied to her that i was doing assignment then close the call.
what so special about birthday actually?unless someone give me present then is different thought. but i am still glad that FB still got a lot people to wish me as JUIN said. but i am waiting for someone that is very influencing to me to remember my birthday.

stress out

i am running out of steam as i am finishing my assignments, test, and tutorials. i guess it happens to some of my classmates because there are some jerks who thought they are the free riders or they had contribute so much for their groups. i do not mind as long as they do not get on my nerves.

share some private opinion here because i don't want any of my classmates know what am i thinking. do you think vegetarian steamboat in unlimited buffet style will be successful?the consumer can eat as much as they can and pay u 19 bucks per pax. do you think 19 bucks for unlimited access vegetarian steamboat will be successful instead of charge you 50 bucks?the regular unlimited access steamboat charging at average 29 bucks. my opinion is 50 bucks and above because this is a new concept. the high price enable me to cut the price or do additional promotion in the future.

alright, cut the crap. tomorrow is my birthday. i wish the same wish as last year plus one more wish. err... i wish i can be better and stronger. are there anyone going to celebrate for me?i don't think so. my classmates was not bond like that time anymore. anyway, wish myself happy birthday. don't too overrate myself.

man with the hood

i am back to the blog world as i feel that there is no one that I can trust around me to tell my story to. Well, i backed to Penang to work while my holiday since 28th of january. I actually back to Poh Kong Jewellers to gain some achievement, so that I can have a good testimony when I apply for job in the future. ( I was thought that the achievement can be recorded in my Advanced Diploma certificate, not eventually)

So I work my ass off to achieve the target set by my boss - RM 125,000 from 1st of March to 15th of May. But I gave myself a target of RM 80,000 then I can take a rest d. For your information, the target that my boss gave is equals to RM 60,000 per month which is the target for those who already work for 2 to 3 years with the basic salary of RM 1,000 and above. But my basic salary is the junior sales which is just RM 700. But my mindset was just on the achievement so i just don't give a damn. Moreover, in their culture, all of the junior sales that just started to do sales, their first and second month sales will be around RM 15,000 to RM 20,000. So that had been a great pressure to me because i wasn't confident that i can achieve my boss's target or even my target.

Surprisingly, i did a RM 28,000 for the first month which is at the rank 4th (the outlet has 10 salespeoples and i am the newbie). No newbie had done this before except the rank 1st in the outlet when she was a newbie. So, she defined me as her threat that will challenge her top sales position. Then all the salespeople started to steal customer or share the lights and do a lot of tricks just to keep themselves in the 'competition'. But, i managed to do a RM35,000 plus a RM 40,000 of gold bar which put my overall performance to RM 100,000 by 21st of April. By that time, I felt like nothing to fight for, so I tendered my resignation then I left on the 23rd of April.

Actually, I had done a pure survey or experiment on my job experience. The previous job experience with Poh Kong Jewellers which i entered on the 27th december of 2008 and i left on 23rd of April 2009, that time I wasn't a salespeople yet. I was having training for those period of time. I managed to keep well relationship with all of the staffs (because i wasn't their competitor yet). But when the second trip back to Poh Kong which i promoted to a salespeople, our relationships all broken and they even see me as threat and sabotaj me to stop me from challenging the top sales. In conclusion, got sales = no friend, no sales = got brothers. (only apply in Poh Kong culture) But I would like to thanks to those seniors that willing to teach me a lot of their secrets and thanks to the boss for giving me the chance.

By the way, I met a girl named Pei Ching in Poh Kong. but she wasn't the same outlet as me. She is cute, but I won't think about that.